Today I experienced death. I didn’t die, and yet I participated in an activity where I got as close to death as I’d ever want to be apart from the real thing.
It was interesting really. There was a group of us, and where I don’t want to get into the details of the activity because I would want each and every one of you reading this blog to experience it fully for yourself, I will tell you that while the group was arguing on how to complete the task we were given, Brandon and I were frantically taking action to protect each other. So, we put our heads together and formed a plan! And the result ended up separating us from each other, I died and Brandon lived.
We pushed ourselves mentally and physically at this event...
What a weird feeling. I wasn’t going to be near Brandon for the rest of the weekend. Instantly tears started to build up. I thought about how much he loves me and how thankful I am to have such a strong man I can proudly call mine. He ran around coming up with ideas on how we would both live, and only had our safety in his mind. All the experiences we will go through together make us stronger and stronger, and we love each other more and more. (Thank you thank you thank you baby, I’m so grateful for you. That day I realized even more how fantastic it will be to spend the rest of my life with you!!!)
I watched him start to help the others. Since I was the one of the first people to take action, I was able to sit on the side lines and observe everyone else during the activity. Some laughed, some cried, some yelled, some said nothing. I started to think about the situation, and came to a realization. These people are reacting the way they are all because I took action. Me…I stopped everyone from arguing because I just went for it!!! I literally took a leap of faith, dove right in, and even though I originally didn’t have the complete outcome that I wanted, I led everyone else to start taking action! What would have happened if I hadn’t taken the action I took. Would someone else have stepped up to the plate, or would the arguing continued until our time ran out, and we all would have died?
I looked at the people I had saved. And the ones lost along the way. A peaceful feeling came over me. I was going to be alright even though I didn’t have the outcome I was originally aiming for. I would deal with what emerged and hold my head high because I took action, and I was where I needed to be to come to that realization. I mean, with the theory of life after death, what would people that we cared about think when they’ve passed on if all we did was sit around and cry, or blame everything going wrong in our lives because of their passing? And whatever you believe to be true, whether you believe in ghosts, spirits, heaven, or none of the above, is true for you and no one else. You are still able to think about that loved one(s) and know that they would probably kick your butt if you didn’t move on with life, continue to take new actions, and live the best life you could.
We took action and broke through cement!!!
With that huge insight came another new little piece of me. I vowed to always Take Action Now. When? NOW…because you never know what day will be your last. Brandon and I already have our plans for 2009. Do you? Maybe it’s now time you sit down and really think about you want next year. Do you want a new car? A new house? To quit your job? Take your kids on vacation? Create amazing relationships? Have an incredible sex life? Live, laugh, and love often? Extra money in the bank? To not have to worry about how you’re paying your bills? It is all possible when you believe and take action. I know that now. And I love my life! I’m taking action every day. You will do it too.
xoxo.
